So often I find that I try to find my place in this world, to find where I belong, to find meaning for my life. These are things I think almost all if not all of us do. And though we kind of realise it, it doesn't slap us in the face like the first part of this chapter does; all of these questions are not wrong to think about but all of them give off the sense of, me me me. Where do "I" fit in to all of this stuff, this world. Answer: You don't. Your life means nothing compared to all of the time on this earth (Don't let life be confused with soul, God loves you that is for sure, your body is what doesn't matter). We try so hard to satisfy the "needs" (we don't need them) of our body, trying to find comfort trying to find peace, I have yet to meet anyone that can get and keep this peace. We are not meant to find peace in our bodies, they are not our home, there is a house for us in heaven. The sooner we stop thinking we are worth something, the sooner we stop using drugs, drinking, taking pleasure in sexual sins (not sex in marriage, but lusting stuff like that), the sooner we forget about our lives here on earth the sooner we can find the spirit, which I have found doesn't bring comfort the way we want it to, in that it takes away all the stuff that sucks about this world, but it brings comfort in that it assures us without a doubt that there is a place for us in heaven. So often, being in ROTC, I hear about people who say the reason and why they are in the military is that they want to be a part of something bigger than themselves they want to protect the lives of those close to them, they want to serve. So I ask you and I ask myself, what is bigger than God, what is better saving/protecting someones life or their soul, what is the truest form of service; does it not have everything to do with God.
Today before I read this chapter I made a choice, a choice to drop the feelings I have been having to try to bend to this world, it was leaving me empty and lonely. I'm done with that. I have decided to once again give my life to Christ. This chapter assures me I am doing the right thing. When you read this (Chris, Jeff, anyone else) please contact me somehow and congratulate me, I am excited to no longer try to control my life when I know I do a sucky job at it. Also I wrote a new song, I like it it is a praise song.
I think we all suck when it comes to the whole 'control' thing. It's human nature to want to control things-especially when it comes to things we feel is important to us.
ReplyDeleteI don't think it's a coincidence that you found that 2nd Corinthians Chapter 5 resonated with you-especially since it's more or less about spiritual piety. That's not to say that you weren't pious any any aspect of your life, it's just that even Christians suck at this whole 'Christian' thing.
It's going to be tough to live up to this challenge of being more 'Christ-like'. Especially when you have to admit it's okay that you have no control.
Then again, faith is a major part of it all too. Hebrews 11:1